Every year is a treasure hunt for me, which defines treasure here as in term of “Relationship”, “Career”, “Personal growth”, “Good Health” and “A balance life”. Thus, every year is unique. I’d held the same cast for over years as I noticed, therefore with different script. As a result, I may find the true treasure, which is “the meaning of life”.
It’s like a dynamic character in theatre, same person casting a different script – only evolve in channelling the right emotion to flow. That is how me, Danielle Assiaticca looked at it.
So this year of 2010 bring a new level in me of perceiving life and the course of seeing things differently. As we all lived from today onward and no one and no things are exclude from the course of nature; I am not afraid of getting old, because age is just a number – we acquire maturity along the way as a significant mark of a long life which to guide ourselves to make the right move and to have life in perspective. Let’s cherish our regrets and accomplishment because that’s what made you and me for all those years.
With this opportunity, as my travel journey of life – honoured me to write and I’ll honoured you to read on what I want to recap of the highlight in my life of 2010, and It’s not a galore but a written faith.
“Something over the rainbow”
This year has been quite a complicated for me in term of relationship, well I’d been through lots, but this time it’s different. Who has the higher authority when it’s comes to personal feeling. I’m not sorry to anyone, maybe I hurt too many or too little out of my consciousness. Maybe I fall, crushed or liked someone in short term, and like I said; “It has been a complicated year”.
Honestly, I’m heartbroken by some people that I do trust, and sometimes its challenge my trust towards them – occurs in certain occasion. This people I used to call them my best friend forever – BFFs. So what the hack, I have never has one. Through many years, developing trust within this circle, share laughter, a shoulder to cry on, and strongly instils the understanding, completely turn into something worst at the end.
Yes, this year; things just getting vague, people easily get blind-sided by one version of story. Do they much trust on the twisted story that the real truth. Yes, it’s pain in the ass for you guys to have a “person” in that circle. As long that person didn’t admit what I’m telling is true, the only true...I’ll sacrifice ours relationship, I step down easily. I just had enough for that particular person to be let go easily. I just want to wish all of you to have a better life, and truly from the bottom of my heart, things aren’t just right for me.
That’s all about friendship. ~~~
“You have a great smile; you are capable to open up someone out from the shell”
It was an inspiring comment; leave a remarkable mark for the rest of my life. A definite thanks to that person such bringing my morale so up high.
Back to the square one, do I really have that capability? If I do, why at this time it’s still hard for me to open up myself to another people? Rhetoric question; Am I getting cold inside? Had the Antarctic wind blew deeply at the core of me and froze it?
Cut the long story short; I did tried to open up once again. I was blind-sided, I thought I knew, and I was totally being led. I knew I was being led; I have some sort of feeling that I can’t get through it by myself. Damn it. I cursed, cursed and cursed.
So now, it’s only a memory that I cherish and forever to live it with.
Up to date, I have much a stable life; expecting new comers and stranger... experiencing feeling that I never knew I have and just looking forward for what the categories fall to “relationship” that will bring me next.
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